A very long goodbye

I go to school in Poughkeepsie, New York.  Poughkeepsie…What an odd name of a city.  Someone actually took the time out of their day to think up a name for this small portion of New York and they come up with that?

Anyways, it has only been about a month and two weeks since I have been seeing my boyfriend Daniel and already we are separated for three and a half months.  The night that I had to leave him without me was one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do.  Never have I’ve met someone so perfect and so willing to go through a long distance relationship and when I asked him why he is okay with doing this, he said “Because I know you’ll be back.”  Not many people look at it the way Daniel does.  Many people would rather look at the small picture than the bigger picture.

Small picture–I’m in New York and he’s in Hawaii.  I’m not physically with him.

Bigger picture–I’ll be back in just three and a half months and nothing will penetrate the strong love that we have for each other.

I know what you’re thinking.  “You fell in love with someone after just a month??!!”

Yes.  I did.  And I have never been more sure in my life.  I hardly even think about my past relationships and how badly I’ve been treated because Daniel has been nothing but amazing to me.  People will say that we are just two fools in love but if being called a fool is what it takes for people to really believe that I love this man, then so be it.  I’m a fool.  I have never been more sure about anyone is such a short amount of time.  But love really does not have a time limit and the fact that I have no doubts in my mind about our long distance situation just goes to show how much I trust and love him with all my heart.  And he tells me the words that every girl wants to hear but there is only one difference that separates his sentences from the past…I believe him word for word.

The night that I left him, I wasn’t crying.  This surprised me beyond belief because a couple days before the separation, I was crying like I was 2 years old again.  But this showed me how confident I am about going away.  Of course the no-tear phase didn’t last long.  As soon as I started driving out of his drive-way, the flood arose.  I jumped out of my car, hugged him as tight as I could, and started tearing all over his shoulder.

After I left, while I was driving on the freeway, I was wondering why the world didn’t stop for us.  I just left my boyfriend to go to New York, a place where I don’t even like, and the world just keeps moving along?  The radio keeps playing it’s repeated songs over and over while I stare into the dark freeway hoping everyone would stop what they are doing to realize what has just happened.  But of course, that’s just nonsense.  The world goes on and so must we.  We will get through the thousands of miles of distance separating us physically, but spiritually and mentally I am always with him.

Me and Daniel at Cheesecake Factory

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